01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
no

02. Swam with wild dolphins
yes (and they were real wild ones, not the ones fed to lure them to the shore as in Monkey Mia (sp?) - it was in a secluded bay on Kangaroo Island, Australia)

03. Climbed a mountain
yes, max elevation 5725 metres

04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
no, but I'd love to!

05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
no, did not make it to Egypt yet (I'll spare this one up for my retirement…)

06. Held a tarantula.
no, I petted an Anaconda once

07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
yes, now I am looking for a huge triangular shaped tub to repeat it

08. Said 'I love you' and meant it
yes, definitely

09. Hugged a tree
yes

10. Done a striptease
yes

11. Bungee jumped
yes, at the original bungy site (Kawarau bridge, Queenstown, New Zealand, 43 metres)

12. Visited Paris
I've been to Paris twice, but I would not count this as real visits

13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
yes

14. Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise
sure

15. Seen the Northern Lights
yes, a beautiful one, lying with a girl in the grass at the camp site in eastern Iceland the night before going back

16. Gone to a huge sports game
well, define 'huge'... but, yes, I did

17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
not yet, see 5.

18. Grown and eaten my own vegetables
ages ago, with the help of my grandma

19. Touched an iceberg
yes

20. Slept under the stars
yes, gorgeous!

21. Changed a baby's diaper
no

22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
not yet

23. Watched a meteor shower
yes

24. Gotten drunk on champagne
yes

25. Given more than you can afford to charity
hm, yes (I gave a lot) and no (what is more than I can afford)

26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
yes, part of my studies

27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
oh yes

28. Had a food fight
no

29. Bet on a winning horse (even if it was only $1)
no

30. Taken a sick day when I was not ill
erm, yes - thousands in school, since I am in a job only once to do 16.

31. Asked out a stranger
yes (a nice girl from New Zealand I met in a hostel in Adelaide in Australia, it was a romantic night with dinner, wine at the jacuzzi... never heard from her again)

32. Had a snowball fight
sure

33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
no, I'd love to, but the copier would probably collapse

34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
yes

35. Held a lamb
no

36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
hm, yes

37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
yes

38. Taken an ice cold bath
yes

39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
yes

40. Seen a total eclipse
yes, the famous Sofi@Karlsruhe in 1999, I was able to do some nice photographs from it

41. Ridden a roller coaster
yes

42. Hit a home run
no, Baseball is a sport I've never watched nor played

43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
it's my fucking job

44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
yes

45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
yes

46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
yes

47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
yes

48. Had two hard drives for your computer
yes

49. Visited all 50 states
never been to the USofA, I have visited all federal states in Germany, which many of my fellow Germans don't do

50. Loved your job for all accounts
yes

51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
yes

52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied (maybe now?)
I am greedy like hell, so no, definately not now

53. Had amazing friends
YES! I HAVE amazing friends!

54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
yes

55. Watched wild whales
yes, off shore from New Zealand and Minkwhales on a sailing yacht

56. Stolen a sign
yes

57. Backpacked in Europe
yes, actually on all continents except North America and Antarctica

58. Taken a road-trip
yes

59. Rock climbing
yes

60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
yes

61. Midnight walk on the beach
yes

62. Sky diving
no

63. Visited Ireland
no, not yet

64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
yes…absolutely…

65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
yes

66. Visited Japan
no

67. Benchpressed your own weight
no

68. Milked a cow
no

69. Alphabetized your records (and CD's and tapes and and and...)
yes

70. Pretended to be a superhero
I am a superhero!

71. Sung karaoke
yes, twice, embarrassing

72. Lounged around in bed all day
yes. love to

73. Posed nude in front of strangers
not exactly posed, but I have been to the sauna regularly

74. Scuba diving
no

75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
no, well, I don't know if I know this song

76. Kissed in the rain
yes

77. Played in the mud
yes

78. Played in the rain
yes

79. Gone to a drive-in theater
no

80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it
yes

81. Visited the Great Wall of China
no

82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
yes, but that was OK

83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
yes, and returned to Windows

84. Started a business
yes

85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
no

86. Toured ancient sites
yes

87. Taken a martial arts class
no

88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
no, but I would

89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
yes

90. Gotten married
no

91. Been in a movie
as an actor? no

92. Crashed a party
yes

93. Loved someone you shouldn't have
yes

94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
yes, at least that was what I have been told

95. Gotten divorced
no, see 90.

96. Had sex at the office
no, don't fuck in the factory!

97. Gone without food for 5 days
no

98. Made cookies from scratch
no

99. Won first prize in a costume contest
no

100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
yes

101. Gotten a tattoo
no, but I might get one some day

102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
yes

103. Rafted Canoed the Snake Black Water River
no, no rafting at all

104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
no

105. Got flowers for no reason
yes (incredible plus embarrassing for me, my (at this time fresh) girl friend, and the girl who gave me a rose)

106. Masturbated in a public place
yes

107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
yes

108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
no

109. Performed on stage
yes

110. Been to Las Vegas
no

111. Recorded music
yes

112. Eaten shark
yes

113. Had a one-night stand
yes

114. Gone to Thailand
no

115. Seen Siouxsie live
no

116. Bought a house
no

117. Been in a combat zone
yes, Cyprus to some degrees and to Nepal during riots between the army and Maoists

118. Buried one/both of your parents
no

119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off
yes

120. Been on a cruise ship
no, but on long-distance ferries, though

121. Spoken more than one language fluently
I hope my English is fluent enough to qualify for a yes to this question

122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
yes

123. Bounced a check
yes, not exactly a check but a bank transmission

124. Performed in Rocky Horror
not on stage but in the audience

125. Read - and understood - your credit report
yes

126. Raised children
no

127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
no, not recently

128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
yes

129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
no

130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
yes

131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
yes

132. Called or written your Congress person
no

133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over to be with the one you love
no

134. ...more than once? - More than thrice?
no

135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
no

136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
yes

137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
no

138. Had plastic surgery
no

139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived.
no

140. Wrote articles for a large publication
yes

141. Lost over 100 pounds
no

142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
yes

143. Piloted an airplane
no

144. Petted a stingray
no

145. Broken someone's heart
I do not think so! And at least did not meant to!

146. Helped an animal give birth
no

147. Been fired or laid off from a job
yes

148. Won money on a T.V. game show
no

149. Broken a bone
yes, twice as a child (left arm, right leg)

150. Killed a human being
no

151. Gone on an African photo safari
yes

152. Ridden a motorcycle
yes

153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph
yes

154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
no

155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
no, I hate weapons

156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
yes

157. Ridden a horse
yes

158. Had major surgery
no, not really

159. Had sex on a moving train
yes

160. Had a snake as a pet
no

161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
no

162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
yes, often

163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
yes

164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
yes, easy, as I have never been to the States.

165. Visited all 7 continents
no, Antarctica and Nothern America have to wait

166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
no

167. Eaten kangaroo meat
yes

168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
no

169. Been a sperm or egg donor
no

170. Eaten sushi
yes, not my piece of cake, though

171. Had your picture in the newspaper
yes

172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime.
it is sad, but no

173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
yes

174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
no

175. Gone back to school
no

176. Parasailed
no

177. Changed your name
no

178. Petted a cockroach
no

179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
no

180. Read The Iliad
partly

181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
yes, many, Goethe and Shakespeare, among others

182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
yes

183. ...and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
no - but the cafeteria at university changed from mugs to small unattractive cups to prevent stealing before my collection was complete

184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
if you consider programming a computer as art - then yes

185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
yes, catched a fish

186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
no

187. Skipped all your school reunions
no

188. Had sex with someone half your age or twice your age.
no, half my aged would be barely legal, twice my age necrophilic - I neither did when I was younger...

189. Been elected to public office
yes, semi-public at the university

190. Written your own computer language
no

191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
yes

192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
no

193. Built your own PC from parts
yes

194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
no

195. Had a booth at a street fair
yes

196. Dyed your hair
yes, black, dark red, green, blue

197. Been a DJ
yes

198. Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
no

199. Written your own role playing game
yes

200. Been arrested
yes


...nun...mir scheint ich habe nicht allzuviel ausgelassen, was ich für erstrebenswert erachte. Leider auch vieles nicht, was ich nicht für erstrebenswert halte...

Ist diese, unsere Welt nicht wunderwunderschön? Überall diese symphatischen, interessanten Menschen. Sonne. Frieden. Wunderbar.

Nein, ich möchte ehrlich zu Euch sein, die den Weg hierher gefunden haben:

Ich bin heftig misanthropisch veranlagt, glaube, dass 95% aller Menschen Arschlöcher sind und bin darüber hinaus arrogant.

Dieses Ding hier, dieses "Blog", ist schon privat genug, darüber hinaus möchte ich mein Leben für mich behalten. Wer es wirklich drauf anlegt, und Profiler-mässig agiert, dürfte aber keine Schwierigkeiten haben, noch mehr herauszufinden.

Aus aktuellem Anlass: ich bin Jahrgang 1970, so, damit dürfte ich die kleinen Mädchen hinreichend abgeschreckt haben.

Aus aktuellem Anlass II:
auch heute noch top-aktuell
"So, ich habe jetzt also auch so ein - ja was denn eigentlich? Weblog? *würg* Blog?? *doppelwürg* Internettagebuch? *schnarch*. [...]

So lautet der allererste Eintrag im dairy of misery. Mir ist klar, dass ich nicht erwarten kann, dass Gäste bis zum ersten Eintrag durch die Seite wuseln. Daher hier noch mal der Hinweis auf das naming ("wie wir cool people zu sagen pflegen").

Dieses hier ist mein Standard-Gästebucheintrag, für denn Fall, dass auch dieser Hinweis hier im "About" nicht hilft:
Hallo,
vielen Dank für Deinen Eintrag im Gästebuch von dairy of misery.
Zu Deiner Frage: ja, es soll in der Tat NICHT diary sondern dairy heissen.
Wobei ich da weniger die Molkerei im Sinn hatte, als die kleinen Eckläden, die dairies.
Ausserdem finde ich es ausgesprochen lustig (komischer Humor - mag sein), dass ich auf den vermeintlichen typo angesprochen werde - aber keine Sorge, Du befindest Dich in guter Gesellschaft.

Könnte in Zukunft aber auch zynischer werden... ist wohl Tagesform -abhängig.

So fing alles mal an - lang, lang ist's her...

"So, ich habe jetzt also auch so ein - ja was denn eigentlich? Weblog? *würg* Blog?? *doppelwürg* Internettagebuch? *schnarch*.

Aber das Ding soll einen Namen bekommen - als Titel hatte ich mir "diary of misery" überlegt, hab mich dann aber doch für "dairy of misery" entschieden - schon weil ich mich schon jetzt auf die ganzen Mails von irgendwelchen Vollspacken freue, die mich freundlich drauf hinweisen, dass ich mich da ja wohl verschrieben haben muss.

Ausserdem ist genau dies eine schöne Reminiszenz an die Einstürzenden Neubauten bzw. Blixa Bargeld, der sich früher gerne als - so ich mich korrekt erinnere - "Dilletant" bezeichnet hat."

(Datum des Originaltextes: irgendwann im Frühjahr 2003)

Ich mag Silvester nicht besonders, ich brauche keine besonderen Zeitpunkte (Dec31stTwentyfourHours) oder Anlässe (Karneval!), die definieren, wann ich zu feiern habe.
Und das Warten darauf, daß es endlich Mitternacht wird, geht mir schwer auf die Nerven. Ist genau, wie bei Geburtstagsreinfeiern - die sind auch immer scheiße: alle gucken ständig auf die Uhr, als sei es eine Bürde auf der Party sein zu müssen. Wenn es endlich zwölf ist, man brav gratuliert und sein scheiß Geschenk überreicht hat, gehen auf einen Schlag dreiviertel der Leute. Pflicht erfüllt...

Dieses Mal habe ich mich aber schon buchstäblich wochenlang auf Silvester gefreut (und meinen Adventskalender sieben Tage zurückgestellt) - dabei war alles anders angedacht aber dank der betrieblichen Weihnachtsfeier mußten die Pläne geändert werden.
So ging es also am 31. nach der Arbeit durch den Nebel im Fränkischen Wald nach L-LA

Was soll ich sagen?

Wir haben zusammen gekocht, zusammen Unmengen gegessen (nach den Scampis plus Litschi, Phisalis und Grisini mit Parmaschinken war für den Hauptgang Lachs in Meerrettischkruste an Spinat und Bandnudeln kaum noch und für den Nachtisch - Himbeertiramisu - kein Platz mehr), zusammen auf dem heiligen Sofa gesessen, zusammen beinahe Silvester verpaßt, zusammen geknutscht und zusammen geku-nuddelt (tm, eine Freud'sche Fehlleistung meinerseits vor einigen Wochen, Kunstwort aus kuscheln und knuddeln, wobei die mir eigene Definition von Kuscheln gegen Einsendung eines selbstadressierten und ausreichend frankierten Rückumschlag angefordert werden kann).

Das Kopfkino läuft auf vollen Touren, es ist alles gleichsam wunderschön und schrecklich kompliziert...

Ich solle mal wieder schreiben, sagt sie. Bzw. ich schriebe ja nicht mehr, was schade sei, denn eigentlich wär ich ja ihr Papa im Blog Life Tree (wtf?).
Nun ja, vielleicht schreib ich mal wieder, ist ja wirklich viel passiert, einiges gar erwähnenswert.

...ich weiss nicht, ich weiss nicht.

Viva El Indifferente!